So here I am with my rather mild interpretation of the tattooed lady look. Thank goodness it is only temporary! This is only half of the design with the ‘target’ shape being to the far right under my clothing. My appointment at the hospital was not as straightforward as I had hoped with my expectations of a quick signing of the form being rather optimistic. I was again poked and prodded to the point of nausea – Wilhamina is just not that sociable I am afraid – I will be so glad when I don’t have to put up with her uppity antics any longer. There also seemed to be some confusion about x-rays/scans (none of which I have had) and missing information which led to me waiting in the reception are for around 40 minutes wondering what the heck was going on! Not good for the nerves.
I guess one of the strange things about this, is that apart from my ‘companion’, I feel absolutely healthy. I am overweight but I feel as if I am in good health. It takes 25 minutes to walk to the hospital (it would take 20 if my legs were not so stumpy) and I love being outside striding along in the end-of-summer air. But I have this ‘thing’ which indicates (supposedly) that I am sicker than I have ever been in my life. Bizarre! Any treatment that I have, to make me better will in fact have the potential to make me feel more ill than if I were to just carry on as normal. What a weird situation. But of course I know if left untreated it would all be a different story and I have to keep reminding myself of that. So tomorrow will be a new chapter – the first step on the road to recovery! That, in a strange, ironic way is very exciting.
At least with all the hospital appointments ahead of me, I have a good chance of losing some weight with all the walking!
PS. I really have to thank you all for the wonderful comments, messages and emails. Every time I write this blog I wonder what the heck I am doing, it is as challenging as it is cathartic and I do feel very exposed. I guess I write in a very ‘real to me way’ and it has surprised me that anyone would even be interested in the inner workings of my wittering mind, but really your thoughts mean a great deal. Cheers and see you on the other side of surgery! x