Today was, I think, almost the first day that I did not tell someone new – that has amost been the most exhausting thing about the process so far. It is also the first day that I did not have to succumb to a wee nap mid-afternoon – progress indeed! Along with the worries about the illness, the potential fertility debate, has been the nagging worries about finances and work. I work part-time as a Reminiscence project co-ordinator, a job I dearly love and of course for the rest of my working week I am self employed. This puts me in a somewhat precarious position I feel! My manager came to see me this afternoon and if I have not said it before I will say it now – I have the best boss in the world! Although it is not possible to predict how things are going to pan out, I feel reassured that I will be able to work things around my treatment and recovery.
I have also decided to make an ongoing project of our wee garden. It is my current favourite place to be but having only moved into this new build home last year, it is a bit of a blank canvas. I have planted wee bits and pieces but am hatching plans to develop this further and shape it into even more of a sanctuary. I am excited! I just need to find plants that our pet rabbits, Jeeves and Wooster will not destroy as they have made a pretty good job of eating everything so far….
Today has been a good day – it has felt more ‘normal’ than any other day from the past week-and-a-half and at times I could almost forget the huge changes that are happening in my life. Even when, aware of the persistant pain or being stopped in my tracks at a worrying thought, I was able to think of this as only being a temporary situation. I have been overwhelmed at the support from friends, family and on-line friends. Your thoughts and comments and well wishes mean an incredible amount to me. I just need to find a better way of responding to comments – sorry this is a usual blogging dilemma with me.